What am I thankful for this year? Every Thanksgiving I look around the table and see the faces of many of my family. Always my children, as they all know this is the only holiday Mom cares about, so the only holiday they need to make sure they are here, or suffer the wrath . . . But that aside, I am always grateful that my husband and children are healthy and happy, that my extended family are also well and some are able to be with us each year to celebrate Thanksgiving with us, for all the wonderful things that happen during the previous year, and what is to come. But that is pretty much generalizing my sentiment every year. This year has been a bit different.
I do have to back up a little, to August of last year when we added our daughter-in-law to the family. Then this year, adding a son-in-law. Before you even think it, no grandchildren and not rushing, but we do have a new addition. Our son and daughter-in-law added Aida to the family a few weeks ago. She is a beautiful and well behaved 1-year-old puppy, and fit in with our two very well. She even joined us for Thanksgiving, and was wonderful.
But when I look back over the last year it has been so very full! I can honestly say that I have not been wasting time. One of my biggest fears about having fibromyalgia was that I would become sedentary. But, as a person who will not allow the word ‘fear’ to affect me, I attack that. So balancing myself out with all that I want to do, I can do it. It takes scheduling, pre-planning, and most importantly knowing when to say ‘no’. Sometimes people don’t understand when I do. But that’s ok, because I do. And in all honesty, in the end the only person I have to be ok with is me.
It was cool though, when I was 6 days into my Arizona trip, and had spent the whole day running around with my little sis, nieces, and oldest friend. It was early evening and we had gotten back to the house, I knew I was about to hit the wall, but I still had two more days of my visit to go. My oldest friend could see it and suggested we head back to her place (I was staying with her). At that point I could have chosen to stay and hang out all evening, but it was not a good choice because I would have been hurting the next day, and then compounded on that for the trip home. So we left. What was cool was that my little sis understood when I explained that I had ‘hit the wall’. It was ok to say ‘no’ and leave, because we still had two more days. Missing one evening was a small price to pay for two more fun-filled days, and they were.
So what am I most thankful for this year? That I do not use the word ‘ex’ in regards to my ex-husband’s family. They are my ‘first’ in-laws. I went to Arizona to spend time with them, to share their granddaughter’s wedding pictures with them in person. Tell them stories of the wedding with flourish, and not just quick emails. To give and get hugs, laugh, talk, reminisce, and share what we are all doing now. I am so very thankful to be a part of their lives, and have them in my/our life.
My life is full of so many wonderful people, my family, our Village, friends, and it continues to grow. I have grown, especially with my camera. I see more, and not just through my lens. I have grown artistically, genealogically, and spiritually, and will continue to grow. Life is a continuous adventure, and I am always up for an adventure. Just as when we first moved here in 2000 and I would pack up the kids and a map, and intentionally get lost so we could find our way home.